and have to go school again to take back phone from triple L! sian. nobody go school. so i pull huiqi go with me. have some work out. then go hall and watch im not stupid too. damn boring! end school around 11pm. wait for triple L and get back my phone.then me and huiqi go 805 saw huibing and esther so join them for lunch. after that bus home. sleep for awhile then around 1+pm wake up.faster prepared and meet leonard yiceng shawn hong yee daniel. bus 136 to serangoon garden. reach there around 3+pm. go fantasie. i know its kind of lame to go drink at this time.but 3pm - 8pm happy hour means dont have to pay any for room charge.and we totally save $ 75 for the room charge.how nice. having fun there. cheng heng huiqi vicky came too. we total open 6 jar. me leonard and shawn drink the most. daniel and yiceng drink abit and the rest didnt drink. was quite blur . and my mouth bleed like fuck. i spilt saliva all contain with my blood.go toilet wash up. then huiqi say the basin stil got my blood.lol.how disgusting. was very fun la. end at 8pm. then bus home after that. everyone was very tired already. reach home bathe and went to sleep straight away.

PICTURE!!


ME AND LEONARD! =)
leonard me huiqi
me and huiqi
me and lau yiceng.dark untill only can see his spect! haha
me and daniel
me and cheng heng
huiqi me daniel
me daniel lauyiceng
me daniel and leonard

dont intend to go school today.but have to because triple L ask me to see her. so try luck see if can take back my phone anot. after assembly go see her. thought can take back.but didnt.quite pissed off. after school meet huiqi at plaza. borrow spare phone from her. bus to my house wait for me to prepared then we mrt to plaza sing. walk to cathay and we watch dead silence. very very scary!! half way through the movie we scare untill we dont dare to watch anymore.we wanted to retreat but dont dare.haha. so watch finish. is a nice show. after that we go back plaza sing and have our dinner at thai express then we train back to hougang mall and meet leonard yiceng shawn hong yee cheng heng and marcus. slack awhile then we go plaza play pool then around 9+ pm all went home. reach home watch tv and play computer then around 12+am talk to ahseng untill 1+am.

last night talk to ahseng untill 2+am. almost late for school this morning.wake up late.mr shahrom treat our class peach tea.and we were like ' yam seh' in the canteen.haha.was kind of paiseh but lucky doesnt have much people.my phone got confiscated by triple L! what the hell.early dissmissal from MR anba again.how nice.go home bathe.sleep untill 4pm.wake up faster prepared then meet yixian at hougang cc bus stop. i was late and i got no phone!! we 72 to tm. accompany yixian for her drums lesson.after that we walk around for awhile then we 22 to ang mo kio. the journey was so long. sit untill out butt numb. lol. meet yvonne and finna there. slack awhile and wait till 9.50pm for our 881 movie. went in the movie. watch with alot of aunties and uncles. LOL. the movie not bad la. quite sad at the back.abit dont understand. movie end at 11.50pm. go out smoke then we cabbed home.

last night talk to ahseng untill 3+am. damn tired. sleep during english lesson. and i seriously dislike teacher whenever after PTM keep saying about complaining to my parents. damn pissed off. want complain go complain la.like my father give a fucking damn about how i behave in school. lucky teacher never say much. if not i'll lose my temper. got some agruement with friends again. so guessed by then should be have sloved already.
and i almost lost my first kissed to JASON YAP! hell! almost kissed him. .!!!
he la! always like to scared people by putting his face next to your face when you're talking to people.then when you turn. you'll get scared by him or almost kissed him! SO LUCKY!
and today end school at 12pm.dont know what happen too.last minute one.
after school raining so heavily.and we cab to blk 15 as they want to smoke.
after that went home.got myself wet like hell. bathe and online awhile.talk to ahseng untill 4+pm.and i went to sleep. wake up at around 5-6+pm. called ahseng awhile then went out to find huiqi at upper court. rongxing daryl hong gou matt ben they all was there. me and huiqi go rachel house awhile and we go mall to have our dinner then to kopitiam and slack.and went home around 9pm.

today school end at 1pm.after school accompany them go suki sushi eat.and went home after that.bathe and online.talk to ahseng on the phone.and i found out that 'he' actually blocked me in msn. i dont know how to describe.the feeling is like sad+angry+disappointed. ya. then around 5+pm go hougang plaza meet huiqi.play pool and eat at KFC.shop around and slack awhile and walk home.reach home around 9+pm.

im having so much problem now.
i really wish i could concentrade on my studies.
next monday is N level already.
then now having some friendship problem.
just hope that it wont affect our friendship.

and for 'him'
guess everything is over.
i think there's no point for me to hold on anymore,
since he already treat me like this.
blocked me in msn. ask him anything also dont want reply.
in some ways maybe i already know what will be his answer.
i just want an answer to end everything up.
isit that hard for him to at least explain what his friendster trying to mean?
but he just choose not to bother and reply.
i just cant believe how CRUEL he can be!
maybe im not that kind of girl that he's looking for.
so no matter what i do or how long i waited.
he will never be back.
he's no longer the ahboy that love me,care for me and dote me.
like what he write in his friendster.
everything is over.everything will just remain as memories.
so i want to thank him for all the nice memories he gave.
and he's happily leading his life now.
so maybe i will just end everything here.
takecare

wake up around 2+pm. talk to ahseng. around 4+pm.go hougang plaza meet huiqi and gail.play pool then go gelare . then go kopitiam and slack.untill 8pm bus home. while crossing the road home.got this bike almost bang onto me.i didnt go notice who is it.then he shouted ' IVON' i turn back. its jason (luo han) . then he shout ' dont remember me ar? mai gei siao leh ! ' and of cause i did shout back that i remember him. then go home talk to ahseng again. then the jason was sososo irritating! hell. bowen wanted come find me again.but he everytime come at the wrong time.lol.didnt mean to cheat his feeling=x.

wake up at 12pm.prepared and around 1pm walk to 302 to meet huiqi. then we mrt to plaza sing.wanted to watch blood brothers. but the queeue was too long la.so we walk to the cathay.but there doesnt have blood brothers.and dead silence was too late. so we bought the ticket for Ratatouille. go eat at yakun and walk around. the movie was very boring la. half way the movie me and huiqi walk off. we watch for 1hr only.whatever.walk to luckyplaza and ask for the price for nitendo DS. me and huiqi wanted to buy =) . go fareast see things and train back to hougang.meet agnes there and go for the funeral of Gabriel.too bad i cant go in. alot people was there. sit outside with agnes samual and liying. one by one walk out crying. after that me and huiqi headed to hougang plaza.play a few rounds of pool and go eat at 805.then saw yvonne and yixian. go up plaza slack awhile in toilet with liting and charmaine. then me and huiqi go back to the funeral again.bowen called. he wanted to come find me. lol. slack awhile and went home. reach home around 11 like that.

damn sad.Gabriel Goh died of an accident.he was run down by a bus 27. after recess time , everyone go hall and mrs wong announced to the whole school.alot people was crying.ding cao go to the front and use piano play one song for Gabriel.was damn sad untill mrs wong cried too.he was crying and crying while playing.i feel so sad for his family and girlfriend.go back to class. and saw leonard run aroudn the field.heard people say is because Gabriel love running.so he run for him.run alot alot of round. mrs wong and other teacher tried to stop him.but he still keep running.

after school go home changed and meet gail yvonne and huiqi at my hosue here.then me and huiqi bus to bugis.eat delifrance and vicky came.go bugis street walk awhile then we cabbed down to serangoon garden.wait for the cab wait untill damn long! meet leonard daniel shawn dickson yiceng and weibin there.they was all drunk! i came late. they drink all finish!! go in sing afew song and left.they was so drunk.they're crazy. and because i want to drink we go kovan there drink=) so we go wait for bus.and leonard was sososos drunk! he do stupid and crazy stuff. he usually dont do that. he very care about what others think of him.and he behave very neat and smart outside. but he was drunk and he behave like a SHIT! make us paiseh!! lol.after drinking go some void deck slack too cool themself down.lol. then when everyone was more awake we leave. me and leonard was chatting while walking.then he almost kana bang by a car.scared me.lucky only the mirror hit him and lucky he never anyhow move ,if not he sure knock down by that car.those guys leave first.me and vicky go mac eat fries and i walk home.

on the way walking home. got this two around 30+ guy and they doesnt look like singaporean.
and when they two walk pass me. they look at me and they was like saying ' xiao mei mei ' . i was damn scared .i faster walk and walk. damn scary. reach home then talk to ahseng untill i sleep.

after what happen this morning.
the first person i think about and worried about was him.
hope that he will becareful while riding his bike.
and pray that he'll be safe .
and pray that nothing else more will happen.
this few days too much things happen.
really cant take it.N level are coming.


PICTURE!


me and leonard
leonard and yiceng

blur



retarded him

10 MORE DAYS TO N LEVEL!! OMG! and we still planing where should we go next week.like go movie or what.we never even think of going to study.whatever shit.i already prepared for the worst.haha. after school talk to ahseng awhile then eat at joe's corner. then we train to cityhall.go pennisula again to accomapany rachel huiqi and yvonne to buy their skinnies.then train to far east to buy my cadigan.finally get the cadigan that i long wanted to buy.haha=) . shop around.and went home around 6pm.

go friendster check if he got reply my friendster msg.but never.expected.used to it.tired of it already.

bathe and eat durian=) and talk to ah seng all the way from 7pm to now , and its like 11pm already. and he's calling back later . just now play 02jam with him. he play my account and i play his account. better la.because im lousier! then he use my account can gain more experience and jem. getting boring.

school was the same la.nothing much.after school go eat at suki sushi eat.after that go home.

saw his friendster profile. he changed his profile saying ' nObdoy understand me .All is over..ntH is left except the memories we once have..gOOd bYe.' what does this mean.i dont know is it an answer for me or whatever.i just cried after seeing this.i ask him is that an answer for me? he didnt reply. i just hate the way he dont bother to reply my msg. understand how i feel please.it doesnt feel good.i just want to know whats going on.even if it's an answer that i doesnt wish to hear,at least let me give up. i just dont know whats he thinking. anything also dont want tell me.how am i suppose to let go. its so torturing! i never felt like this before.

around 6.15pm.father fetch me to school for PTM.
miss chia was the one that talk to my father.
in the end triple L, mrs LI and mrs krishnah
come complain.maybe thats the only chance for them to talk.
complain about everything.lucky i dont have any strict parents.
i father dont give a damn to it.he just care about my result on english.

go home after that,talk to ahseng untill around 8+pm. talk untill he fall asleep.how dumb.
watch tv and blah blah

go for school mission today. and i participate in the games. kana saboge by friends for the nice dimple i have=) haha. kind of boring la. during the break was quite fun la.all the teacher are not around. then inside the hall,those guys was like playing around.toa-pok here and there.and there's some problem.suddenly one of the guy using the mike and shout to calvin and say 'now domanic jio you 1 vs 1.you humji ar? dont dare fight ar? ' we were like shocked!? we stand forward to jason yap there and check it out. everyone gather there and watch.and was about to start.the teacher come in but went out after awhile.and we continue cheering and make noise. like as if having some boxing fight like that. daryl they all was like shouting' domanic 1 pay 5! anyone!?' lol whatever la. damn funny. in the end they fight.not really interesting la. teacher come in and end of it. everything end at 1pm. ahseng called. talk to him for awhile.then huiqi come my house.slack awhile and wait for my father to come home.take money and we train to pennisula to buy skinny jeans then to town to shopping. i brought a tee and a slipper. the tee shirt was damn cool.ahaha!!! go home around 7+pm. rest awhile and walk to net force to meet leonard.walk to kovan.and because of someone , leonard want to go other places.so we go in MRt wanted to go hougang mall or compass point.but think and think. stay in kovan the best and we went out of the MRT again. i go buy bubbletea and leonard go meet girl.kind of pity him la.LOL! make him pay for the dinner for making me wait! LOL. after eating .smoke and bus home.reach home talk to kumar awhile after hang up the phone. bowen called.talk to him.lol he was kind of lame!? after bowen then talk to rachel for awhile.

PICTURE

fill in the blank using ' h ' .i want a_boy for my birthday.
haha.isnt it cool? didnt realise it at first untill huiqi tell me

being forced to take photo with him=(

go school like normal. im going to sick. my throat damn xinku.huiqi also.maybe is yesterday lawinton food.haha. i cant imagine im saying all this things out.omg! finally understand how gail feel.maybe this is what girls can do for a guys.haha!. because since young, i got afew mind set. like example. why must go into a relationship at this age? knowing wont last till married,knowing will have to break up one day.why must get into a relationship to get yourself hurt? but 'he' make me change my thinking. he changed my mindset.i dont know why.
just now when sleeping during maths lesson.when i suddenly wake up. i got this very very strong feeling.i feel so lost .i feel so afraid. i dont know why.the feeling like , he will never be with me again.he stop loving me.he choose to tell me the answer after N level is because he know it will be a negative one,and he scare by saying now it will affect my studies. a very strong feeling.i dont know.friends say is just a feeling.i may not know what will happen. after school go plaza accompany them to eat and go home. play computer and sleep and blah blah

wake up at 1+pm.play computer and everything. prepared then around 3+pm go hougang interchange meet huiqi and wait for kumar to come. and he wear untill soosso black! haha. bus 89 to downtown east. buy BEN & JERRY and cigg then we take cab to coasta sand.and its like so near la! the metre only jump 20cent. how lame. reach there only saw lawinnton ahhong dalton and their two other friends. we still ask lawinton ' your chalet ar? ' he replied ' ya' then he bring us to the room.all stranger.then he tell us is his friends chalet. then we all damn paiseh la.his friends chalet ask us come?! then we sit there they keep serve food. drink a few cans of beer. the way they talk cork still so funny la. cant stop laughing. haha. around evening they all changed and go for swimming.cant stop laughing.kumar was sososos funny.beccause ah hong run and jump into the pool.kumar follow behind.guess what!? one more step to pool and he slip off! and fall into the pool.damn funny! at that time i was like so sad.and when he fall i was like laughing like shit. i called 'him' and he did answer. like finally.whatever , the more i'm afraid. after their swimming go back to room.sit outside and BBQ. and they open martell. and i dont intend to drink. then the birthday guy keep asking me too drink. pure still.bo bian. help drink abit.then lawinton cook for us. his cooking skill not very good la.lol. all either chao-ta if not havent cooked.then huiqi father fetch us home.reach home watch tv and play computer untill 1am then talk to ahseng untill 3.30am.

wake up at 4+pm. wake up then realise my leg got injured.cant remeber how and when did i fall down. cant remember what happen yesterday. went to sleep again. wake up at 8+pm. play computer and watch tv.around 10.30pm take bus to leonard house and meet him and daniel.walk to veri nice and eat.slack there. they told me what happen yesterday. they say yesterday i called him.and i cried like hell. and i said all kinds of thing like i go commit sucide. and i throw leonard phone on the floor after he hang my call?omg.they keep saying what i do very LOW CLASS! they say yesterday i like siao? keep asking daniel to slap me? hit the wall.and do stupid stuff. whatever.still wondering did i really called him? feel myself so irritating.around 12.15am take bus home.talk to ahseng untill 1am.


now keep thinking and thinking.
two more weeks to N level.
stressed.i cant concentrade on my studies.
HOW HOW HOW!!!


PICTURE THAT I TAKE FROM LEONARD PHONE.





two idiot lying down on zebra crossing. with my bag in the middle!!!hell

didnt attend school today.self-declare holiday. whatever. leonard early in the morning 7am called me and ask me about after school want meet out.i was still like sleeping la.whatver.sleep for awhile more then around 11+pm ahseng called.talk to him.talk alot untill 1+pm he went to sleep.then i go prepared as was meeting huiqi at 2.30pm.and i wear untill very black today.lol

go plaza meet huiqi and train to cineleisure for the movie 'secret'. because just now i check for the time is 4pm at the NEW cathay then i thought it was at cineleisure.we reach there check the time and it was wrong.then we faster take cab down cathay and rush for the movie.haha.missed alittle part of the movie.
got one part that jay chou was kissing the girl.wah. me and huiqi almost gone crazy.the girl get to kiss him!whatever.jay chou playing piano. wah the sence really melt my heart.very very handsome. the movie was damn damn nice!you will never expect it to turn out this way. but the last part abit dont understand.almost cried for the show. after that we go eat at BEN & JERRY and walk to takashimaya and get finger food to eat then to far east.huiqi brought a hot pink skinny jeans.very very bright those kind.shop around then around 8pm train back to hougang.go back hougang plaza play pool eat sushi then huiqi went home.

i bus to net force and meet up with leonard daniel yiceng weibin and another guy.leonard accompany home to take money. then we bus to kovan and slack while waiting for daniel to come.was deciding where to go.watch movie or fantasie.so as leonard and i feel like drinking we headed to serangoon garden for fantasie.haha.we reach there around 12+am . we sing for 2 hours and open 3 jars.daniel didnt drink much.so all the while me and leonard keep drinking and drinking. think i was very very drunk. i cant remember what i do.no impression of any thing that i have did.wake up at 5+am and find myself outisde my house there.ask maid to open the door for me.changed and fall asleep.

i was shocked,when i going to upload some picture into my computer.i saw these picture.
I DONT EVEN REMEMBER WE TAKE SO MUCH PICTURE!LOL.weird.

PICTURE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICTORIA DARLING!
go school as per normal.after school go home changed.prepared and i wear whole white!huiqi wear whole black.around 4.30pm went to hougang MRT sation meet up with huiqi and rachel first then go MRT meet gail and finna.vicky came too.haha.me and huiqi like attract attention like that.whatever .we dont give a damn.planned to watch secret.the show start at 5.20pm . but we reach plaza sing at 5.25pm.in the end we change to watch RUSH HOUR 3. didnt enjoy the movie.because i wasnt interested in that show. almost fall asleeping during the show.after that walk around to look for gail tanktop.but doesnt have any that she like.walk to cathay eat BEN & JERRY and train back to hougang. me vicky and rachel go plaza to play pool first while the rest went to hougang mall and buy vicky's cake. half way playing the pool then bring the cake out and we sing a birthday song for her.and thats it.after everything we go KFC for our late dinner and went home around 10+pm. watch tv and chat with kumar untill 12pm. watch tv again.then chat alot alot with bowen and lihan on MSN. and bowen called and disturb me.what the hell!?whatever.

and i did very badly for my prelim exam.

chemistry -6/50
physics -16/50
history -3/50
social studies - 2/50
chinese - 53/100
maths -52/100
english - failed. havent get to know my marks

PICTURE!!
evil devil and the innocent angel.HAHA
white VS BLACK
white and black
me and huiqi
vicky and me
huiqi's black levis watch. and mine white levis watch
see shee is a gangster!!
this is so out of point
gail is half black & white.lol


huiqi and me
angel and the devil.LOL

WEDNESDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLEY LING=)
school was alright.get back my chemistry paper.im so happy!guess what?i didnt get zero! i get 1 1/2 marks! have some conversation talk with mrs gannesa.think she was quite pissed off!haah.

(i was doing my correction for my chemistry and i just do 1-3 question the rest all blank)
mrs ganessa: im going to show your paper to your mother.
ivon: orh . show lor.
mrs gannessa: guess she also dont care.
ivon: ya lor
mrs gannessa: you're useless nothing.
ivon: okay okay la. at least i never get zero.
mrs gannessa:so you're happy with your result
ivon: ya. i thought i would get zero.but i get 1 1/2 marks.not bad la.
mrs gannessa:(shake head)

HAHA!
after school go home changed. then go hougang plaza meet huiqi gail shirley vicky and we go for K box as it was SHIRLEY BIRTHDAY.sing and sing untill 7.30pm.
finna and yvonne came after they attend songkar. eat at 805. then they headed home while i accompany vicky to wait for her friend then walk home.
reach home around 10+pm.talk to kumar for alittle while. then was suppose to talk to ahseng but i fall asleep. i like talking to him.very nice to talk to.