wake up at 8.30am. bathe and rush to hougang plaza and meet up with shirley and mingjing walk to school together. paint on the rest of canvas. art end at 1pm. so go home straight bathe and sleep. wake up at 5pm plus. online awhile and went back to sleep. watch tv and all.



sometimes i really feel that he doesnt love me like he used to anymore. i can feel it . he doesn't care like he used to . everytime take a very very very long time to reply msg. whatever man! I DON'T CARE!



MONDAY



didn't have enough sleep. less than 5 hours of sleeping. wth.was suppose to meet at 12pm . but end up all very tired.so keep sleeping. i sleep untill 2pm like that. faster bathe and rush to hougang mall to meet rachel gail shirley grace yvonne i was soso late.lol. had aijisen . after eating we go hougang plaza lanshop to check on blog. was kinda lame la. play touch screen and pool. around 7 pm plus walk to hougang mall meet up with yixian and finna. wait at mac for rachel to go buy her dog stuff. then we cabb to marina south. our cab uncle don't really know how to go so we follow yvonne their cab. and their cab bloody hell go so slow then keep brake make us feel like vomitting.when around there our cab uncle then overtake yvonne they all and make us feel so much better. have so much fun there. was so hot la and i'm like wearing jeans and cardigan because was suppose to go ice pub after steamboat but rachel cant go home late and was cancel .should have wear shorts and tee . we fried the prawn and it was like still alive. then they will move wan. so disgusting feel so bad .we're killing life. we wanted to take video of a prawn struggling when bbq them. then i go put butter on it and the prawn jump out on the table. everyone jump behind and shout like crazy. me and shirley jump to another table squat down. then wah almost cry. scared me !! i didn't eat much . eat 5 crabballs. lol. then everyone was like keep scolding vulgar la. eat untill very pekchek but fun la. everyone kana burned by the butter but i didnt la. because i didnt eat! aha. then shirley keep cooking the crab. then the crab will move want lor. how disgusting. anw then i ask them to feed me . like crab prawn and blah blah. because i didnt want to dirty my hand . how evil.after eating we take photo. then when we wanted to take group photo of me rachel yixian gail and yvonne. got one cockroach walk over my leg! how disgusting ! i can feel so many leg on toes crawling . and i jump and scream like crazy ! we take bus to MRT. and train home. and i was injured . my leg bleed. i drop at kovan and bus home. reach home only stomachache and go shit. then later rachel tell me she laosai also. do my art and talking to rachel yvonne and finna. yvonne finna laosai also. lol shirley only stomahache only. LOL. chat untill 4.30am like that i went to sleep as tmr still need go school.


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DUMB FACE!

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SUNDAY



stay at home whole fucking day. wake up at 4pm plus. lying on the bed and rot. play computer around 10 pm plus caiyan called. talk to him then rachel call in also. yvonne also call in. chat untill 5am like that i hang up the conference and use laptop and watch finish my the silence. watch untill 9am in the morning. cry like fuck. damn bloody sad. then faster go sleep cos left afew hours of sleeping before going out to celebrate rachel birthday

wake up around 3pm like that. he didnt msg me! so kinda pissed off. and i tell him how much i hate when he don't reply me. and he reply saying why i like to scold him and say its his fault again. wtf. i'm not even scolding him? whatever . but we're okay after awhile . he called me when he's working. and he actually in toilet shitting when he called me. how disgusting.lol. stupid bf . chat for awhile and i'm sososo boring staying at home . watch the silence again.

FRIDAY

stay at home whole day. watch the silence. cry like fuck. damn bloody sad. and i hate the 3rd party so much that i actually keep cursing them scold them .lol. feel so stupid!

stay at home. watch the silence and paint my canvas. didnt intend to go out. untill 6 plus yixian called . so i faster bathe and all.go plaza meet yixian. then we two bus 74 to ang mo kio. walk around angmokio hub. didnt buy anything.then we go mac eat shaker fries and headed back to plaza. damn boring. slack downstair plaza with yixian pepper pikachu and bg. around 11 plus walk home and continue watch te silence untill 2 plus and sleep.

WEDNESDAY

meet rachel at hougang mall kfc around 5pm like that. faster eating kfc gail come meet us and we walk to rachel house intending to bring bibi go puggol park for a walk.but too lazy la. so we just stay at her house. her dasao was there too ( new-maid) . LOL! slack at her house untill 6 like that we bring bibi walk around upper there then back to her house and use laptop. i borrow one set of cds from her and bring back my sister hanakimi. then gail go home.so i walk to plaza and meet yixian up and take the silence from her. lol. i'm like taking one whole big bag of cds! slack around plaza. go woodball see them play . then around 11 plus go downstair slack awhile with yixian pepper john weiliang ivan and blah blah. and i walk home. conference with gail rachel yvonen and caiyan as gail are leaving singapore tmr.after talking watch the silence

wake up at 9am . bathe and meet gail at plaza. eat at kopitiam for breakfast and go school for art.we was late for one hour. end at 1pm. have to bring back paint and canvas board home and finish up everything by 19 of june. go home. bathe. while waiting for bf to wake up i fall asleep. so he called and ask me go sleep lor. then we meet around 6 pm plus like that.sam and bf come my house here fetch me then go tm fetch sam gf then we go suntec city .on the way to suntec he keep disturbing me la.keep make me fall infont if not take his helmet bang me.lol. go suntec watch men in white. sam gf got free ticket. so boring inside because i watch before already. we was 30 min late for that show. after movie they go shk .yixian ask me want go MOS anot.yvonne want lend me ic.then bf say if i got go then he'll send me to MOS and meet them up.but yixian cant go. so never go.then we go the build-a-bear workshop find his friends . kinda cool la. total of 5 couple there. zzzz. then go arcade awhile then left me boy sam and his gf. we go untill sam gf house there to eat and send his gf home. after that send me home. reach home around going to 12am i think. then watch tv untill 2 am plus. kumar called me wanted to talk to me.but i didnt want to. so i go sleep.

wake up at 8.30 am . meet gail downstair her house. saw shirley and mingjing at mac. walk to school . go school . do the last part of drawing then start on canvas board already.its like finally.
then around 10.30am . got break. me gail and agnes walk to mac and have our breakfast and go back school . mrs manning ask me mixed colour skin color. mix for hours! and i used quite alot of paint. still cant get the colour. so get mrs manning for help.finally done. but lesson already end. so pack up .and my shirt kana paint. OMG. make me look so lum nua. faster go home bathe and sleep. suppose to meet gail and huiqi at hougang plaza at 2.30pm. but i too tired. i sleep untill 3.30pm then faster bathe and rush to plaza. play touch screen.play pool wait for rachel to come then we walk to hougang mall eat ajisen. then after ajisen we pei hui qi go eat gelare. because after today she's going for 8 days holiday.gonna miss her so much. then went home after that. then around 7 plus grace and gail come my house awhile and go home.

SUNDAY

today actually intend to go zouk. !! in the end never go. because gail cannot late go home.huiqi also cannot. so meet gail at plaza go up play touchscreen. nobody was there only daryl and kumar was there. then asked kumar bring us go bumble bee. LOL. but he tonight not going so he say next week then bring us go. he also say sunday nobody go chiong wan =x . slack there eat suki sushi. was suppose to go ktv as gail so wanted to sing but huiqi say today sunday close early.so we just stay at plaza. play pool.then huiqi went off.then go hougang mall NTUC meet yixian and ah john awhile vicky came too. so pei me go gelare eat ice cream waffer. cost me $7.20 . what the hell. meet huiqi again then we go back play play pool . and huiqi went off again. after pool we go hougang mac eat fries then vicky went home. me and gail walk to huiqi house slack and talk cork. around going to 12am walk to gail house and bus home.wah nowadays spend alot of MONEY sia. one day $20. still owe shirley $20. dont know how to return sia. =x

wake up at around 12pm like that.play computer. prepared then help my mother to sms my father.they was like argue-ing. LOL. then so sweet to see my father send such a sweet sweet msg for my mother. he send this > ' dear, i'm sorry . sorry to made you so angry . i love you. ' OMG SO SWEET RIGHT! .ahaha. help untill 2.30pm. meet huiqi at plaza play touch screen.then MRT to plaza sing. go cathay wanted to watch men in white. but the show time is too late. so we eat ben & jerry there . then we train to bugis and shop for bikini. huiqi buy bikini. then shop around. saw my sister. LOL! . shock. laugh like siao. aha.. then we go buy movie ticket for men in white. we go in early. a lousy movie. waste money . thought it would be funny. its so lame. not nice. rated it 1/10 . lousier movie i ever watch. half way through the movie we walk off. train back to hougang. go gelare wait for jojo and his friend to come. then slack awhile there. then go outside mall pei huiqi find frankie to exchange present. lol. so sweet. then we go B1 buy fingerfood and eat. after that we go plaza. yixian yvonee pepper was there.chat awhile and walk home. and chat on the phone with gail and huiqi. yvonne and caiyan call also. anyway me and ah boy get back together already.huiqi and frankie also together already.today they one month. =)

go school to attend two lesson today.after school go home sleep untill 2pm . wake up bathe untill around 3pm like that. go plaza meet gail huiqi and shirley.go kbox. sing sing sing untill 7pm. ah kow give us free fruits . lol. after kbox play one round of pool. play touchscreen also.then go hougang mall eat rush back to plaza to meet yixian and touchscreen again. then me and yixian bus 80 to paya lebar ah john temple. go there slack. today the temple got much happening la. the botak first time tiao tang. didnt see the whole show. half way around going to 12am me yixian and ah john go off. we go off and lihan came. then while waiting for cab ah john pass me a phone call so i say hello. then he say he is lihan say what can woo me anot. what the hell. so ah john take cab and send me home.

today morning was suppose to meet huiqi and rachel and go to kovan for macdonald breakfast.but they cant wake up.so meet gail at hougang plaza and go school together. didnt skip any lesson today.weets . cried in class today.was so irritated. during recess was kana caught by mr anba for not handing up his 4 compo homework and he confiscated our phone.me yixian gail phone was kana confiscated. fucked up . and have to finish up 4 compo by today if not cant get back our phone. agnes help me do one of the compo. then we try to use the one compo and please mr anba to give us a chance.but he dont want.so we sit outside dentention room and finish up 4 compo . do untill 4 pm like that.then after that chiong home. prepared. and walk to yixian house to meet her. she wear untill damn formal.aha.like go wedding night like that.then walk to plaza meet up with ah john and li han.mrt to vivo city. was kinda pissed off. ah john keep putting me and lihan together. keep asking me to talk to him as he's more shy than me. and keep asking me to walk with him.was so stress up. yixian ask me go talk to him find topic and talk to him. and i tell her like very flirt like that and i must be tiongxim. LOL! then she say what just talk as friends only. LL . after vivo we train to town. walk awhile around far east. and train back to hougang.although ah john is irritating but he's a joker. go plaza play touchscreen. go mall eat kfc and go back plaza touch screen. was so tired! and went home around 11pm plus

didnt go school today. teacher called my father. sleep untill 4pm like that.was so sad.i sms him so many msg last night and i thought he would at least reply one.but i think i think too much. so around 6pm meet vicky in bus . i cried in the bus and i didnt know why. each time i recieve his reply i just cried.80 to bugis. help my sister take her bag from her friend yvonne. then we shop around bugis street.was not in a good mood for shopping.just acompany vicky . then we train to town wanted to buy sweater but no more stock. then go tangs vicky didnt buy anything because its closing. so we train back to hougang and vicky is sot of angry with me and i dont even know why? then go hougang kfc eat huiqi huibing esther come look for us for awhile. and after that we went home.

i'm breaking down soon. things are happening at the same time. everyone is leaving me at this time. i just lose two important person in my life. the one that i love and the one that i most respect. i just can't believe this is happening. i dont know if i'm suppose to regret for telling caiyan that i'm meeting him. and this all things wont happen. and i wont lose two of them. now they dont bother about me anymore. they dont care about me anymore. when i tell him the reason why we cant be together . i thought at least he would console me or teach me what to do.
but he just choose not to bother. he choose not to reply. and he choose not to care. and he actually ask me to forget him as he dont want me to lose my friend because of him! at this time he know i need him the most.and i thought he would stand by my side and he actually choose to leave and avoid me.he's avoiding me! what can i do? he is leaving me alone to face all this problem. how am i suppose to face it alone. he got a reason too. and i actually send him a msg by saying since then we'll only can be friends. blah blah. i cant believe i actually send this to him. omg. its hurting me. cry is the only thing i can do now.

today is such a fucking day!
today was suppose to meet huiqi before 10am. while on the way to school i called her. and she at home.so i go her house. watch tv. we skip lesson as usual. lol. then after watching go eat KFC at mall then to plaza to play touch screen saw gail yvonne and finna. then go back school at 1pm for art. kana caught by mr anba for not attending lesson. sian . so fucked up. everyone just need to outline then can start on the canvas board then i have to shade . do for the whole 3 hours. 4.30pm art lesson end. go see mr anba then bus home. change and around 6pm go plaza meet huiqi. play pool and touch screen. slack here and there.huibing came. we go hougang mall buy big lollipop for bob .he today last day.caiyan came too. and something bad happen. caiyan ask who am i meeting. i said and he angry! walao. walk to hougang mall meet ah boy . he brought new helmet. aha. more confortable also. then we go plaza sing to watch shrek 3. go food court eat then go in early for the movie. not bad la the movie. kinda boring but funny. lol. after movie go golden mile play pool . sam came. see them play pool awhile. around 12.30 am like that they send me home..
again i'm in a difficult position. thats the reason why i cant be with him. knew this thing will happen . can anyone understand how i feel. what the fuck. i'm feeling so down right now!

MONDAY

meet gail and yixian at plaza. walk to hougang intending to eat mac. then huiqi called ask us go back school to take attentence. so we walk back. and i'm wearing slipper. then kana caught by mr anba. he ask me go back home and change a proper shoes and report to him . so i go home change and meet gail yixian they all at plaza . they went back school for lesson then i wait for huiqi to come then we go hougang mac eat breakfast. dont know where to go. we skip all lesson again. lol. dont know where to go so we go rachel house slack. she sleeping then we keep wake her up then she at there kpkb so we watch tv. untill 1pm plus walk to 805 to eat. agnes called ask us go back school as art start at 1pm not 2 pm. meet gail and walk back class. havent do layout but mrs manning help us think.some people already start canvas board already.end at 4pm. go home change and meet huiqi and gail at interchange. MRT to plaza sing. go to my sister shop and exchange something. then walk around. wanted to far east to buy sweater but lazy so we stay at plaza sing. walk around eat ajisen . i buy 3 keychain. lol. they are soso cute. around 8pm like that mrt back. go plaza yvonne and yixian was there. vicky came too. play pool and stuff they all slowly go home.so me and vicky around 11 plus bus home

SUNDAY

dont remember already .

wah . so sad. he didn't reply my msg!! getting so irritating to keep irritated him already. kumar last night 3am plus msg me dont know what. think last night they go drink then he seh? anw today wake up at 2pm plus. play computer bathed and around 3pm plus go hougang MRT meet huiqi. LOL make her wait for hours plus already. train to orchard. go fareast shop for her bikini. she lost $100 sia. in the end never buy. shop around. walk to shaw house thinking of watching movie. go there make me think so toh ah boy. haha! anw we didn't watch.walk to paragon go in one chinese restuarant to eat dim sum . while ordering for food we decided not to eat. and we go off. so paiseh la. then we eat at thai express. after eating we told ourself to remember to buy 'whatever' then we forget. we go hereen to look for ben and jerry but don't have. so we walk to plaza sing and train back to hougang. go hougang plaza slack. saw john only keep asking me about lek han. never go pub today. the ryu not free.how sad. slack at k pool. pei yvonne go 805 eat then touch screen. bob going army soon. how sad. will miss him badly .me and huiqi got almost the same problem. feel like but scare.LOL. and we say we going to sing the song ' don't matter ' lol. nobody want to see us together . my blog song. listen to the lyrics and this is how me and huiqi feel. lol. chat alot with her about hers and mine problem.

didnt go school today. must go school for the whole next week already.is a MUST! meet huiqi and rachel at hougang ktv at 3.30pm. sing yixian and vicky came.feel so much like crying. but didnt. after ktv keep asking people pei me go ahboy pub but gail cannot. then ahboy change outlet so we cant go in. so go my house i take spare cloths.if got go pub then i'll change it. go plaza meet gail and yvonne there. actually going daryl house with kumar pikachu they all to drink. but kumar say change it to tmr already. and i so much feel like drinking. keep asking around plaza see who want bring me and yixian go pub.tell bob also then he say he going tell caiyan that i want go pub. so i say 'say la i also not scare.' then he really tell caiyan. and i thought caiyan will scold me. then he shouted my name and say he other day bring me go. ahah! ah john also helping me find place. they say other day bring me go because today they not really free. how sad. ah john is so irritating la. keep disturb me. say he know my exboyfriend. and i thought he really know. then everytime will say lekhan here and there. walao. even my testimonial is flooded with him and yixian about what lek han. play pool eat suki sushi and touch screen. go home at around 12am like that.