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didnt go school today. teacher called my father. sleep untill 4pm like that.was so sad.i sms him so many msg last night and i thought he would at least reply one.but i think i think too much. so around 6pm meet vicky in bus . i cried in the bus and i didnt know why. each time i recieve his reply i just cried.80 to bugis. help my sister take her bag from her friend yvonne. then we shop around bugis street.was not in a good mood for shopping.just acompany vicky . then we train to town wanted to buy sweater but no more stock. then go tangs vicky didnt buy anything because its closing. so we train back to hougang and vicky is sot of angry with me and i dont even know why? then go hougang kfc eat huiqi huibing esther come look for us for awhile. and after that we went home.

i'm breaking down soon. things are happening at the same time. everyone is leaving me at this time. i just lose two important person in my life. the one that i love and the one that i most respect. i just can't believe this is happening. i dont know if i'm suppose to regret for telling caiyan that i'm meeting him. and this all things wont happen. and i wont lose two of them. now they dont bother about me anymore. they dont care about me anymore. when i tell him the reason why we cant be together . i thought at least he would console me or teach me what to do.
but he just choose not to bother. he choose not to reply. and he choose not to care. and he actually ask me to forget him as he dont want me to lose my friend because of him! at this time he know i need him the most.and i thought he would stand by my side and he actually choose to leave and avoid me.he's avoiding me! what can i do? he is leaving me alone to face all this problem. how am i suppose to face it alone. he got a reason too. and i actually send him a msg by saying since then we'll only can be friends. blah blah. i cant believe i actually send this to him. omg. its hurting me. cry is the only thing i can do now.