ivon

wake up at 10+am this morning.
so go back to my room and sleep.
then wake up at 3 +pm . use computer and online.

then bus to shawn house.
slack there.wasnt very happy at the beginning.
but after that was quite okay. play psp

so around 6+pm we bus to rivervale plaza to meet sihua
then bus to my house sintua.
eat and i went home to change
then was msn-ing ahboy
and leonard and shawn jisiaosiao.
come disturb. lol.then after that
go back sintua to cross the thing.

then was quite stress la.lol.
cousin and aunties keep asking me to bring my boyfriend come
when i dont even have. then jasmine thought i patch with ahboy? lol .
her reaction damn funny.lol.
then jasmine baby my sister they all know huiqi and leonard together already.
then keep asking huiqi to call them jiejie.haha.
huiqi shy like hell.

then after that thing we cab down to plaza sing.
to watch the game plan. a nice movie. very funny .
sitting with sihua can really make you go crazy.
the way he laugh make me laugh more. he laugh so loud. lol.
almost gone crazy with him. lol

after movie mrt back.
then suddenly when the train reach serangoon
and i suggest to go fantasie for drinking.
cos suddenly feel very very sad.
so pull all of them out of the train.haha.
walk to interchange to take bus.
and its raining very heavily.
and my pants got wet.

go fantasie and open two jars.
leonard cant drink cos huiqi dont let.haha.
so i drink and drink.
so long since i last really touch beer or liqour.
the last time when i drunk was sept 31.
drink a few cups and sing song. feeling damn sad,
was asking leonard and huiqi
if i should msg him and say ' will we ever have the chance to be together?
and i was being scolded by leonard.
he say : why must you be a girl be untill so low class
can you be more high class anot ?
i tell you, you dont have him you wont die.
(and i cried after he scold me )

' my sister come to find me awhile and take psp.
and after drinking around 1+am we went to take cab.
and no cab want let us in. so we wait and wait and wait.
for a long long time then finally got a cab willing-ly to let us in.
so cab home and bathe.

online.chat with ahboy
and chat with him alot about the past things.
and i ended up saying ' whatever its over '
and he reply ' =) ' .
so guess this is his answer.
think i really got to wake up from all the dreaming
and face the fact that he will never be back.
i will not and i cant put a single hope and hoping he will be back. NO NO!
like what yvonne say
' so what if the feeling is like back to the past.
its already the past
and i got to live for the future
and not holding back onto the past.'
yea yea thats right baby .
ever since 20june2007
for the past 6 months
i have been leading a miserable life.
and i cant let my future just continue this way.
i got to do something about it.
and thats forget.
if he will come back
he long ago will .
so everything just let fate decide.

at least for now we're still friends.
we still go out as friends.
he still treat me like friends.
unlike the past.
and i really dont wish to do and ask anything
that ruin the friendship of us.
and i get to learn that ' love someone doesnt mean must be with him,
as long as he's happy and thats it.