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meet rachel at 6.30am in bus 136 to kovan and have our breakfast and rest awhile.damn tired and full.havent get to sleep for the whole day.was late for school.mr guei was so nice today.haha.kana half an hour cwo end up we do less than 5 mintues just to arrange the sofa at the space. and chat with jasonyap for the while english lesson.and sleep awhile.was having flu, sick! then chat with valerie. then slcaking for the whole day.then me rachel and jasonyap skip chinese lesson and stay at canteen wait till 12.30 pm and leave the schoo. we're like retarded sitting there and wait for the bell to ring=x and we are the first to step out of the school ! haha.went home straight,bathe and fall asleep. 5+pm people started to called and ask me want go play fire as today is latern festival.but continue sleep untill 8+pm.damn sick. bathe and meet leonard daniel hong yee and shawn at 401.walk one round around puggol park and meet huiqi at 401.slack untill 10+pm and went home.rest awhile and leonard called.ask me to fantasie.so okay lor.he cabbed to my house and fetch me to fantasie.open two jar just for the two of us.and we finish it within half an hour damn sad.and i cried!?.saw huiling jinghui they all.blah blah blah.so me and leonard cabb home at 1.30am. reach home bathe and talk to ahseng.then ahshun called talk to him awhile .end up conference with ahseng ahshun and ahshun son.asked ahboy called in too but he didnt want. sad!! untill 3am like that ahshun and her friend hang up left me and ahseng talk until he sleep. sian.

ahboy leaving in a few hours time! i dont know what to do.
i really dont wish him to go.what can i do?
although i feel much better know that he doesnt love me anymore.
but i feel even more more more sad knowing that.
i dont know how to say.the feeling that i never had before.
maybe i can only treat him like my friend or a brother to me.


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