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almost late for school . but didnt. forget give boy and vicky morning called. hahas. during english lesson was fun . jason yap was such a joker. have a nice chat with valerie. after school stay back for dentention .untill 5pm went to hougang mall mac to meet up with shirley grace gail and rachel . then yvonne come join us and went home after that. reach home onlined awhile then sleep awhile . then around 11 pm boy brought food for me. ya its so sweet of him. but dont know why we started sending hurting each other de sms. and he broke up with me. and i seriously dont know i should feel sad or relief. and dont know why the tears just drop off. i did feel sad. and i really dont know what i really want. so we will not be contacting each other for the time being to see if i will be happier leading the life without him . im feel bad. making him sad and cry each time and each time again for me .and the more he treat me good the more i scare that i will hurt him. im going crazy soon i really dont know what the fuck i want in life. maybe im really a bad girlfriend? that only hurt him again and again. cant take care of him when he is sick too . i really appreciate every single things that he did for me .
and every surprise that he gave me . he did too much thing for me . but am i worth it? even how tired and sick he is he still have the heart to come find me buy thing for me but what can i say? i cant do this for him . i feel like im a fucker . im so chee bye . im a fucking heart breaker that breaks his heart again and again. i feel like im those bitch , slut those hongster and flirt . sorry for everythings. althought this fews day was short but im happy . thanks anyway . and sorry for every single that i done.

SUNDAY

wake up at around 3 plus. was actually going town with victoria de. but then yixian called ask if want go KTV so anything lor. faster bathe and all that then meet her at around 4 plus at hougang cc . make her wait for hour plus. cause i just wake up and she was there already. thats was like so stupid of her. after ktv we went to hougang mall . wait for boy to come. and he came with a doreamon . and ya he's really sweet . really full of surprise when with him. then while we were chatting half way . he asked me to close my eyes. and he put on the necklace for me. ya its sweet. so have a chat there. yixian went off first. then around 10 plus father called ask me go home and pray . so seperate from boy . sorry . he wanted send me home but i dont allow. ssoorry. pei vicky walk to plaza at 805 saw yixian weiliang ah be jia luo jian hui and etc etc. sit down chat with them awhile and walk home after that. boy called. and we have a nice chat and i dont want to hide from him anymore. so i just told him how i feel and i say i still got a like desmond . and ya . i know i break his heart but i just dont wanna hide from him anymore. so have a nice chat. and ya we still together. and we made promise . no matter one day who break with who . we promise each other not to do silly things and remains as friends.