didnt go school for so many many days already! lol. today wake up at 2pm this afternoon
by ahshun.as we are suppose to go town with rachel ahshun and ahjie. when almost prepared okay then they called and say that ahjie was being locked in his house by his father.so the trip to town was canceled.contined go back to sleep.talk to ahseng and online around 6+pm meet huiqi at plaza go 401 there study abit while waiting for leonard they all.so they came and we slack untill 11pm was thinking if want go fantasie anot but end up didnt.so bus home.bathe and talk to gail rachel and yvonne.play 02jam with rachel gail ahshun ahjie and ahseng and now conferencing to ahseng rachel yvonne and huiqi. its 4.30am right now and we're going to have breakfast later and finally go schooL!

I GOT SO MANY MANY PHOTO TO UPLOAD!
but i'm seriously lazy la.

suddenly wake up at 7.50am! saw the time and its ahboy flight time. saddening.so go back sleep wake up at dont know what time? then meet rachel and huiqi 5+pm at plaza then cab to kovan to eat then slack awhile meet yvonne then go slack at macdonald. then 8+pm me yvonne and huiqi bus back to plaza slack in toilet and slack with yvonne at joe's corner untill 11+pm check friednster and was so shocked to saw suhadra there.then go home bathe talk to ahseng awhile then conference with ahshun rachel and ahjie . ahshun kup at 2+am. the rest of us talk untill morning 6+am and went to sleep.

meet rachel at 6.30am in bus 136 to kovan and have our breakfast and rest awhile.damn tired and full.havent get to sleep for the whole day.was late for school.mr guei was so nice today.haha.kana half an hour cwo end up we do less than 5 mintues just to arrange the sofa at the space. and chat with jasonyap for the while english lesson.and sleep awhile.was having flu, sick! then chat with valerie. then slcaking for the whole day.then me rachel and jasonyap skip chinese lesson and stay at canteen wait till 12.30 pm and leave the schoo. we're like retarded sitting there and wait for the bell to ring=x and we are the first to step out of the school ! haha.went home straight,bathe and fall asleep. 5+pm people started to called and ask me want go play fire as today is latern festival.but continue sleep untill 8+pm.damn sick. bathe and meet leonard daniel hong yee and shawn at 401.walk one round around puggol park and meet huiqi at 401.slack untill 10+pm and went home.rest awhile and leonard called.ask me to fantasie.so okay lor.he cabbed to my house and fetch me to fantasie.open two jar just for the two of us.and we finish it within half an hour damn sad.and i cried!?.saw huiling jinghui they all.blah blah blah.so me and leonard cabb home at 1.30am. reach home bathe and talk to ahseng.then ahshun called talk to him awhile .end up conference with ahseng ahshun and ahshun son.asked ahboy called in too but he didnt want. sad!! untill 3am like that ahshun and her friend hang up left me and ahseng talk until he sleep. sian.

ahboy leaving in a few hours time! i dont know what to do.
i really dont wish him to go.what can i do?
although i feel much better know that he doesnt love me anymore.
but i feel even more more more sad knowing that.
i dont know how to say.the feeling that i never had before.
maybe i can only treat him like my friend or a brother to me.


picture!

in the end.suhadra didnt call. untill 6+ am ahseng called and talk to him a little while.and went to sleep after that. sleep untill 4+pm wake up.was called to rivervale plaza to meet leonard daniel hong yee and shawn.end up leonard got meet gf=( then huiqi and yiceng came too.go KFC and have our dinner.after that walk to future park to play all the funny funny thing. haha.I FALL DOWN!!! saddening=( . leonard come back and continue play and play all stupid stund.LOL!saw mervyn and his gf.we buy candle and play awhile and after that almost got some problem . but didnt.lol. then yiceng,hongyee and daniel went home.the rest of us slack there and chit chat and went home faster that.bathe and talk to ahseng and rachell ALL THE WAY till morning 6+am. haha.ahseng de sound effect damn funny.what a joke.so me and rachel going out for breakfast now!

wake up at around 5 pm this evening by leonard.so bathe and bus to his house.shawn was there too.then leonard father bring us to chinatown and have dinner. talk to suhadra on the phone for awhile. and wait for 45 mintues then they serve the food and we finish it within 20 mintues.haha.after that walk around chinatown. untill 10+pm go home. reach home and talk to rachel huiqi and gail untill 1+pm and stupid suhadra say call back till now also havent call. busy doing my art stuff now.

wake up at 4+pm by leonard they all. faster prepared while they waiting for me at my house bus stop.meet them up and we bus to serangoon garden.fantasie again.just feel ling singing.open two jars. sing sing and sing. leonard bring his gf come for awhile and went off.so the rest of us left at 8pm to R.K house and have roti prata and went home after that.reach home online do nothing and talk to ahseng. after him talk to kumar for awhile and get to know something.damn stupid.after talking to kumar talk to ahseng again and do my art at the same time. play maple for awhile too. so go sleep at 6+am in the morning.

suppose to meet gail and huiqi 6am at kovan mac.i whole night didnt sleep ! i called them at 6am.none wake up.damn dulan.end up breakfast was cancelled! then dont want go school already.go sleep. wake up at 4+pm .
bathe and everything meet huiqi gail rachel and agnes at kovan mac. eat dinner there and slack untill 6.30pm .

i seperated from them and bus to leonard house. wait for them to prepared and his father bring us to changi village to eat as a treat of leonard's mother birthday.lol. didnt eat there.wait for leonard to eat finish and we both seperated from them

bus 89 to downtown east and cabbed into costa sand resort for huiling's chalet.alot of people was there. sing birthday song,cut cake and cake fight but we didnt invole in it.we clever we stand aside.only catherine and huiling fight.lol.fierce car.play stupid hand game with leonard.play untill my hand swollen like fuck! damn pain. and everyone started to play along.lol. gamble awhile and sit outside see kian lum leonard they all play all kind of stupid games and talk cork untill 3am like that and started our drinking session.vodka =) but i didnt drink much. just drink beer. then got one group of people come towards our room.they thought got what problem then everyone come out of the room.end up all know want. all from my school sec three.xinde they all.lol. then go in the room they gamble then me hongyee mervyn and his girlfriend play maths game.haha. its challenging la. got to think alot. untill 5+am.leonard and daniel fall asleep.left me at there.

so i msg him.and i didnt expect him to reply me.but he did.so i asked what i always wanted to ask.but end up coming with a negative answer.i saw the msg i cried straight. called ahseng
and walk out the room to another side and talk then ning xiang foofy they all saw i cried and foofy come towards and ask what happen then jing hui come console me too.we chat quite alot.after she go home foofy come talk to me. i feel so much better after talking to both of them.
and i seriously feel so much better after knowing the truth. so we're still friends and he promised when he free he'll still bring me out. whatever.

wake leonard and daniel up. and slack untill 7am like that me leonard daniel shawn hong yee left to downtown east and have out morning breakfast and 89 back to hougang. meet huiqi and gail and hougang mac untill 8am and left home.reach home bathe and sleep.

draw untill 6+am in the morning. and didnt go school . wake up at 1+ pm. use computer and talk to ahseng untill 2+pm and went to sleep again. wake up at 5pm like that.prepared and everything and meet huiqi at hougang mall. go popular and buy art stuff and go library find daniel yiceng and hong yee awhile then go kopitiam to have my lunch+dinner. then go plaza play a few rounds of pool and slack untill 8+pm. i bus to leonard house alone =( . its his mother birthday so his father fetch all of us to serangoon central there de ktv. meet his sister and his sister friend there. sing + drink. untill 11.30pm we go rising star there eat and send me home.reach home bathe and start drawing on my source . and i got to draw naked women =x lol.

was too boring last night so i went to sleep at 4+am.wake up at 6.45am for school.whole the whole day.only need to attend maths. and i learn something new! =) after school bus home straight.reach home bathe and sleep.untill 4+pm wake up bathe and everything.bus to rivervale plaza and meet huiqi and gail.eat at kfc and slack at macdonald.discuss about art lol..walk to future park and play those funny funny things.and bus home around 8.30pm.just reach home and leonard asked me to shawn's house.but never go.lol.watch tv and do abit research about art.untill 11pm was too boring and nothing to do.so went to sleep.and wake up at 2+am. draw my source and talk to ahseng awhile untill he fall asleep.

play maple and study untill 3+am ah seng called.talk to him then i asked huiqi to call in also as we're not sleeping and we're going to eat macdonald breakfast 6am at kovan.then we keep call gail phone and she didnt answer.so end up breakfsat was being cancel.and i didnt went to school like again! went to sleep. and krishnah called.say tmr i must go school. because too many people didnt go school.today only gail go school because i dua her.ask her go school with me.end up i never go=x . sleep untill 3+pm.bathe and everything go plaza meet huiqi rachel and yixian.very long never go ther already.lol.play a few rounds of pool with huiqi.yvonne came. then yixian went off with ahjohn while the rest of us cab down to fatasie for singing.open one jar only. rachel and huiqi cannot drink.weaker. they drink one mouth then cannot already.so i help them to finish their drinks.damn sad=( . end at 8pm. bus home bathe and sleep.wake up at 12am like that. and till now. damn boring.

MY PLAYLIST!

1. open arms - Mariah Carey
2. living to love you - Sarah Connor
3. ai ru chao shui
4. xin bu liao qing
5. shu xi de wen rou
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open arms - mariah carey

Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind

We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side

[Chorus:]
So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms...

Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

[Chorus]
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Sarah Connor - living to love you

All we had was just one summer
Two lovers strolling in the park
But like they say the world keeps turning
As the leaves would’ve fallen, we should fall apart
Now I’m waiting for the winter
To build my castle out of ice
And deep inside is massive building
There’s a crystal lake of all the tears I've cried.

CHORUS:
Baby for all my life
Don’t you know that it’s true?
I’m living to love you
So baby don’t think twice
If you feel what I feel
Trust your heart and do what I do
Cause I´m living to love you

I’m living to love you
When you’re gone it’s not forever
Cause you’re remaining in my heart
So tell me why I’m feel this aching
Every time I think of you when we’re apart

CHORUSI

admit that from time to time
I’m feeling insecure and think I’m gonna loose my mind
Don’t let it show…no…no…no…no..nooo
I don’t think I’ll never understand
That our love should never have a happy end
So I’m really gonna try my best
To let you know
To let you know

CHORUS

When the final day comes I know the angles
They will see my smile
And if they wanna know the reason
I will tell them why
Baby for all my life ooh yeah
I’m living to love you.
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爱如潮水

不问你为何流眼泪
不在乎你心里还有谁
且让我给你安慰
不论结局是喜是悲
走过千山万水
在我心里你永远是那么美

既然爱了就不后悔
再多的苦我也愿意背
我的爱如潮水
爱如潮水将我向你推
紧紧跟随
爱如潮水它将你我包围

我再也不愿见你在深夜里买醉
不愿别的男人见识你的妩媚
你该知道这样会让我心碎
答应我你从此不在深夜里徘徊
不要轻易尝试放纵的滋味
你可知道这样会让我心碎

既然爱了就无怨无悔
再多的苦我也愿意背
我的爱如潮水
爱如潮水将我向你推
紧紧跟随
爱如潮水它将你我包围
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新不了情

心若倦了
泪也干了
这份深情
难舍难了
曾经拥有
天荒地老
已不见你
暮暮与朝朝
这一份情
永远难了
愿来生还能
再度拥抱
爱一个人
如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切
我不知道 wo

回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来
拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了
情难了

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熟悉的的温柔

我总是一个人走
心里却充满空洞
用太多借口
来弥补寂寞
却无法找回自由

爱曾经擦身而过
喜欢在记忆里停留
习惯搜寻你的
只要你就足够
原来我们一直曾在那
最美的时候

你熟悉的温柔
从不曾离开我
在我眼里看到什么
全部都是你的笑容
我终于明白
你一定会是我幸福的执着
这一次我不会放手

你熟悉的温柔
从没有离开我
在我眼里看到什么
全部都是你的笑容
我终于知道
你一定就是我幸福的执着
这一次我不会放手

感觉不曾变过
时间不再转动
就为了你和我

你熟悉的温柔
从不曾离开我
在你心底看到拥有
你也一直在等着我
再多的语言
也很难去表达
这一份承诺
我不会放手
我要勇敢的
爱着你

didnt attend school like again! talk to ahseng untill 6+am in the morning.and wake up at 2+pm. go hougang mall and meet huiqi rachel yixian gail and agnes.mrt to kovan and have our lunch at japanese resturant like again! then go kovan slack untill 5pm me and huiqi cab down to shawn's house. slack like usual and went home at 10pm.

wake up at dont know what time. then around 4+pm go blk 15 and meet caiyan and bob.slack there awhile and take 62 to shawn's house.then saw hong yee board the same bus with me.so we alight at future park as leonard ask us wait for him.so we did and we walk to his house downstair and buy cig and take 62 to shawn's house again. roller blade at badminton court.not really roller blade la.but we stay there chit-chat and blade abit.and im force to blade.cannot dont blade=( and went home with leonard around 10+pm. watch tv and talk to ahseng

wake up at 2+plus by all the phone calls. leonard said want go sentosa. so okay lor went to prepared then all meet at shawn's house. end up leonard dont know run where la.so i go kovan meet agnes gail and huiqi first. eat at kovan macdonald.slack there untill 6pm like that seperated from the rest and take 62 to shawn's house.

leonard board the bus.so was kana aeroplane of going sentosa again! wait for yiceng to come. then shawn's sister cook fried rice for us. slack there like usual. yiceng went home at 9.30pm . thinking of where to go. then thought of going yishun to watch midnight movie.then when bus 62 came.shawn give the idea of going to geylang.

so we just board the bus.reach there at 11pm. damn scary. then shawn bring us to the back alley.think lor 18. alot of girls,bangala,ah pek and uncles. i was like holding leonard hands all the while.damn scary.some wear bra and panties only sia. first time experience this kind of places.we explore lots of places.alot of the girls are damn pretty la.some still so young.pity them sia.they could have find some better ,rich guys.why working at this kind of place.whatever. daniel shawn and hong yee was being pull by those girls.haha. leonard didnt because i was with him and holding his hand.i save him!haha. then leonard they all keep disturb me by asking me to stand aside with them.LOL. while waiting for bus outside the 7-11.they keep putting me alone standing outside the 7-11 and said that i look like one of them. then leonard gei siao walk to me and act as if he's the customer and come and aproach me. damn idiotic! then reach home around 12.45am.what a day.lol.its fun la.lol

was playing maple and studying maths untill 3+am.ahseng called.talk to him untill 6am in the morning.prepared and 6.30am meet huqi on the bus. go kovan mac and have our breakfast.we was like going to late for school so we eat damn fast.we finish everything within 12minutes.damn fulL!

school was like damn slack nowadays.N level are 16 more days away.and thought it will be damn stress and lots of work to do.but it wasnt what we expect. nowadays lesson they just give work sheet with relief teachers. you want do or dont want do suit yourself.even our subject teacher they dont give a damn. they allow us to listen to music play gameboy as if our exam are over.so i was like sleeping for the whole day.

and i dream of 'him' asking me out on next tues as after we broke off he said we'll still go out as friend.he'll still spend his off day with me.and untill now we havent go on an outing yet.so he asked me out.i was damn happy.the dream was so real.i really wish that i could just stay in the dream because my heart feel damn pain when i wake up and get to know that i'm dreaming! didnt go for recess,asked ahseng to called.and i feel very very sad after the conversation with him and i cried.i dont know why? maybe because of the dream.alot of memories flash back. whatever

.after school go home bathe and talk to ahseng.untill 5+pm meet huiqi at my house here and we bus to shawn's house . and suppose to have some drinking.but leonard was late la.he came at 8+pm. then me and huiqi roller blade to the icon there to buy water.haha.we had a hard time going there.we're still beginner.fall two times.lol. then go back slack like again.

untill 10pm me leonard and shawn go for roller blade again. accompany huiqi to bus stop.and daniel walk.and shawn give a stupid idea of blading to rivervale plaza.and we did.we blade one big round around shawn's house area to puggol plaza behind and from the express way to future park and to rivervale plaza.we got a very hard time going there or can say only me! lucky i got the help from daniel. haha.helping me,pulling me all the way.still i fall alot of times.then we go back by rivervale mall there.then walk pass the school there. we heard something.and we stop down and see.but nobody was inside.alot of footstep sounds.damn scary.and we blade away.we reach shawn's house at 12+am! 2 hours of blading.damn tiring.rest at his house untill 12.30am.

we walk to take 82 last bus.and at the bus stop someone was playing lazor and pointing at us.LOL.but we can't find where is it from. lol.kind of funny la.and we suspect is the taxi driver.lol.reach home bath and talk to ahseng untill i fall asleep.

didnt attend school like again.because wake up late and my father ask me dont go school. last night 3+am ahseng called and ask me call back.but im too tired and forget to call back.so sleep untill 11+pm in the morning.talk to ahseng for awhile and went back to sleep.wake up at 3+pm.go online and realise yvonne yixian gail huiqi didnt go school too! i swear we didnt plan it! and rachel go school alone.how saddening.haha.play maple , study for maths and watch tv. around 8pm went to bathe and bus to leonard house meet him and walk to future park to meet daniel shawn hongyee yiceng.slack there and play with the playground.having alot of fun.its damn fun and scary i swear.almost fly out! haha. then to rivervale plaza accompany them to eat at macdonald.yiceng and hong yee left home first and the rest of us slack at void deck awhile and decided to go back future park and slack.play there chit chat.and take last bus home.reach home around 12am.

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