wake up around 3pm like that. he didnt msg me! so kinda pissed off. and i tell him how much i hate when he don't reply me. and he reply saying why i like to scold him and say its his fault again. wtf. i'm not even scolding him? whatever . but we're okay after awhile . he called me when he's working. and he actually in toilet shitting when he called me. how disgusting.lol. stupid bf . chat for awhile and i'm sososo boring staying at home . watch the silence again.

FRIDAY

stay at home whole day. watch the silence. cry like fuck. damn bloody sad. and i hate the 3rd party so much that i actually keep cursing them scold them .lol. feel so stupid!

stay at home. watch the silence and paint my canvas. didnt intend to go out. untill 6 plus yixian called . so i faster bathe and all.go plaza meet yixian. then we two bus 74 to ang mo kio. walk around angmokio hub. didnt buy anything.then we go mac eat shaker fries and headed back to plaza. damn boring. slack downstair plaza with yixian pepper pikachu and bg. around 11 plus walk home and continue watch te silence untill 2 plus and sleep.

WEDNESDAY

meet rachel at hougang mall kfc around 5pm like that. faster eating kfc gail come meet us and we walk to rachel house intending to bring bibi go puggol park for a walk.but too lazy la. so we just stay at her house. her dasao was there too ( new-maid) . LOL! slack at her house untill 6 like that we bring bibi walk around upper there then back to her house and use laptop. i borrow one set of cds from her and bring back my sister hanakimi. then gail go home.so i walk to plaza and meet yixian up and take the silence from her. lol. i'm like taking one whole big bag of cds! slack around plaza. go woodball see them play . then around 11 plus go downstair slack awhile with yixian pepper john weiliang ivan and blah blah. and i walk home. conference with gail rachel yvonen and caiyan as gail are leaving singapore tmr.after talking watch the silence

wake up at 9am . bathe and meet gail at plaza. eat at kopitiam for breakfast and go school for art.we was late for one hour. end at 1pm. have to bring back paint and canvas board home and finish up everything by 19 of june. go home. bathe. while waiting for bf to wake up i fall asleep. so he called and ask me go sleep lor. then we meet around 6 pm plus like that.sam and bf come my house here fetch me then go tm fetch sam gf then we go suntec city .on the way to suntec he keep disturbing me la.keep make me fall infont if not take his helmet bang me.lol. go suntec watch men in white. sam gf got free ticket. so boring inside because i watch before already. we was 30 min late for that show. after movie they go shk .yixian ask me want go MOS anot.yvonne want lend me ic.then bf say if i got go then he'll send me to MOS and meet them up.but yixian cant go. so never go.then we go the build-a-bear workshop find his friends . kinda cool la. total of 5 couple there. zzzz. then go arcade awhile then left me boy sam and his gf. we go untill sam gf house there to eat and send his gf home. after that send me home. reach home around going to 12am i think. then watch tv untill 2 am plus. kumar called me wanted to talk to me.but i didnt want to. so i go sleep.

wake up at 8.30 am . meet gail downstair her house. saw shirley and mingjing at mac. walk to school . go school . do the last part of drawing then start on canvas board already.its like finally.
then around 10.30am . got break. me gail and agnes walk to mac and have our breakfast and go back school . mrs manning ask me mixed colour skin color. mix for hours! and i used quite alot of paint. still cant get the colour. so get mrs manning for help.finally done. but lesson already end. so pack up .and my shirt kana paint. OMG. make me look so lum nua. faster go home bathe and sleep. suppose to meet gail and huiqi at hougang plaza at 2.30pm. but i too tired. i sleep untill 3.30pm then faster bathe and rush to plaza. play touch screen.play pool wait for rachel to come then we walk to hougang mall eat ajisen. then after ajisen we pei hui qi go eat gelare. because after today she's going for 8 days holiday.gonna miss her so much. then went home after that. then around 7 plus grace and gail come my house awhile and go home.

SUNDAY

today actually intend to go zouk. !! in the end never go. because gail cannot late go home.huiqi also cannot. so meet gail at plaza go up play touchscreen. nobody was there only daryl and kumar was there. then asked kumar bring us go bumble bee. LOL. but he tonight not going so he say next week then bring us go. he also say sunday nobody go chiong wan =x . slack there eat suki sushi. was suppose to go ktv as gail so wanted to sing but huiqi say today sunday close early.so we just stay at plaza. play pool.then huiqi went off.then go hougang mall NTUC meet yixian and ah john awhile vicky came too. so pei me go gelare eat ice cream waffer. cost me $7.20 . what the hell. meet huiqi again then we go back play play pool . and huiqi went off again. after pool we go hougang mac eat fries then vicky went home. me and gail walk to huiqi house slack and talk cork. around going to 12am walk to gail house and bus home.wah nowadays spend alot of MONEY sia. one day $20. still owe shirley $20. dont know how to return sia. =x

wake up at around 12pm like that.play computer. prepared then help my mother to sms my father.they was like argue-ing. LOL. then so sweet to see my father send such a sweet sweet msg for my mother. he send this > ' dear, i'm sorry . sorry to made you so angry . i love you. ' OMG SO SWEET RIGHT! .ahaha. help untill 2.30pm. meet huiqi at plaza play touch screen.then MRT to plaza sing. go cathay wanted to watch men in white. but the show time is too late. so we eat ben & jerry there . then we train to bugis and shop for bikini. huiqi buy bikini. then shop around. saw my sister. LOL! . shock. laugh like siao. aha.. then we go buy movie ticket for men in white. we go in early. a lousy movie. waste money . thought it would be funny. its so lame. not nice. rated it 1/10 . lousier movie i ever watch. half way through the movie we walk off. train back to hougang. go gelare wait for jojo and his friend to come. then slack awhile there. then go outside mall pei huiqi find frankie to exchange present. lol. so sweet. then we go B1 buy fingerfood and eat. after that we go plaza. yixian yvonee pepper was there.chat awhile and walk home. and chat on the phone with gail and huiqi. yvonne and caiyan call also. anyway me and ah boy get back together already.huiqi and frankie also together already.today they one month. =)

go school to attend two lesson today.after school go home sleep untill 2pm . wake up bathe untill around 3pm like that. go plaza meet gail huiqi and shirley.go kbox. sing sing sing untill 7pm. ah kow give us free fruits . lol. after kbox play one round of pool. play touchscreen also.then go hougang mall eat rush back to plaza to meet yixian and touchscreen again. then me and yixian bus 80 to paya lebar ah john temple. go there slack. today the temple got much happening la. the botak first time tiao tang. didnt see the whole show. half way around going to 12am me yixian and ah john go off. we go off and lihan came. then while waiting for cab ah john pass me a phone call so i say hello. then he say he is lihan say what can woo me anot. what the hell. so ah john take cab and send me home.

today morning was suppose to meet huiqi and rachel and go to kovan for macdonald breakfast.but they cant wake up.so meet gail at hougang plaza and go school together. didnt skip any lesson today.weets . cried in class today.was so irritated. during recess was kana caught by mr anba for not handing up his 4 compo homework and he confiscated our phone.me yixian gail phone was kana confiscated. fucked up . and have to finish up 4 compo by today if not cant get back our phone. agnes help me do one of the compo. then we try to use the one compo and please mr anba to give us a chance.but he dont want.so we sit outside dentention room and finish up 4 compo . do untill 4 pm like that.then after that chiong home. prepared. and walk to yixian house to meet her. she wear untill damn formal.aha.like go wedding night like that.then walk to plaza meet up with ah john and li han.mrt to vivo city. was kinda pissed off. ah john keep putting me and lihan together. keep asking me to talk to him as he's more shy than me. and keep asking me to walk with him.was so stress up. yixian ask me go talk to him find topic and talk to him. and i tell her like very flirt like that and i must be tiongxim. LOL! then she say what just talk as friends only. LL . after vivo we train to town. walk awhile around far east. and train back to hougang.although ah john is irritating but he's a joker. go plaza play touchscreen. go mall eat kfc and go back plaza touch screen. was so tired! and went home around 11pm plus

didnt go school today. teacher called my father. sleep untill 4pm like that.was so sad.i sms him so many msg last night and i thought he would at least reply one.but i think i think too much. so around 6pm meet vicky in bus . i cried in the bus and i didnt know why. each time i recieve his reply i just cried.80 to bugis. help my sister take her bag from her friend yvonne. then we shop around bugis street.was not in a good mood for shopping.just acompany vicky . then we train to town wanted to buy sweater but no more stock. then go tangs vicky didnt buy anything because its closing. so we train back to hougang and vicky is sot of angry with me and i dont even know why? then go hougang kfc eat huiqi huibing esther come look for us for awhile. and after that we went home.

i'm breaking down soon. things are happening at the same time. everyone is leaving me at this time. i just lose two important person in my life. the one that i love and the one that i most respect. i just can't believe this is happening. i dont know if i'm suppose to regret for telling caiyan that i'm meeting him. and this all things wont happen. and i wont lose two of them. now they dont bother about me anymore. they dont care about me anymore. when i tell him the reason why we cant be together . i thought at least he would console me or teach me what to do.
but he just choose not to bother. he choose not to reply. and he choose not to care. and he actually ask me to forget him as he dont want me to lose my friend because of him! at this time he know i need him the most.and i thought he would stand by my side and he actually choose to leave and avoid me.he's avoiding me! what can i do? he is leaving me alone to face all this problem. how am i suppose to face it alone. he got a reason too. and i actually send him a msg by saying since then we'll only can be friends. blah blah. i cant believe i actually send this to him. omg. its hurting me. cry is the only thing i can do now.

today is such a fucking day!
today was suppose to meet huiqi before 10am. while on the way to school i called her. and she at home.so i go her house. watch tv. we skip lesson as usual. lol. then after watching go eat KFC at mall then to plaza to play touch screen saw gail yvonne and finna. then go back school at 1pm for art. kana caught by mr anba for not attending lesson. sian . so fucked up. everyone just need to outline then can start on the canvas board then i have to shade . do for the whole 3 hours. 4.30pm art lesson end. go see mr anba then bus home. change and around 6pm go plaza meet huiqi. play pool and touch screen. slack here and there.huibing came. we go hougang mall buy big lollipop for bob .he today last day.caiyan came too. and something bad happen. caiyan ask who am i meeting. i said and he angry! walao. walk to hougang mall meet ah boy . he brought new helmet. aha. more confortable also. then we go plaza sing to watch shrek 3. go food court eat then go in early for the movie. not bad la the movie. kinda boring but funny. lol. after movie go golden mile play pool . sam came. see them play pool awhile. around 12.30 am like that they send me home..
again i'm in a difficult position. thats the reason why i cant be with him. knew this thing will happen . can anyone understand how i feel. what the fuck. i'm feeling so down right now!

MONDAY

meet gail and yixian at plaza. walk to hougang intending to eat mac. then huiqi called ask us go back school to take attentence. so we walk back. and i'm wearing slipper. then kana caught by mr anba. he ask me go back home and change a proper shoes and report to him . so i go home change and meet gail yixian they all at plaza . they went back school for lesson then i wait for huiqi to come then we go hougang mac eat breakfast. dont know where to go. we skip all lesson again. lol. dont know where to go so we go rachel house slack. she sleeping then we keep wake her up then she at there kpkb so we watch tv. untill 1pm plus walk to 805 to eat. agnes called ask us go back school as art start at 1pm not 2 pm. meet gail and walk back class. havent do layout but mrs manning help us think.some people already start canvas board already.end at 4pm. go home change and meet huiqi and gail at interchange. MRT to plaza sing. go to my sister shop and exchange something. then walk around. wanted to far east to buy sweater but lazy so we stay at plaza sing. walk around eat ajisen . i buy 3 keychain. lol. they are soso cute. around 8pm like that mrt back. go plaza yvonne and yixian was there. vicky came too. play pool and stuff they all slowly go home.so me and vicky around 11 plus bus home

SUNDAY

dont remember already .

wah . so sad. he didn't reply my msg!! getting so irritating to keep irritated him already. kumar last night 3am plus msg me dont know what. think last night they go drink then he seh? anw today wake up at 2pm plus. play computer bathed and around 3pm plus go hougang MRT meet huiqi. LOL make her wait for hours plus already. train to orchard. go fareast shop for her bikini. she lost $100 sia. in the end never buy. shop around. walk to shaw house thinking of watching movie. go there make me think so toh ah boy. haha! anw we didn't watch.walk to paragon go in one chinese restuarant to eat dim sum . while ordering for food we decided not to eat. and we go off. so paiseh la. then we eat at thai express. after eating we told ourself to remember to buy 'whatever' then we forget. we go hereen to look for ben and jerry but don't have. so we walk to plaza sing and train back to hougang. go hougang plaza slack. saw john only keep asking me about lek han. never go pub today. the ryu not free.how sad. slack at k pool. pei yvonne go 805 eat then touch screen. bob going army soon. how sad. will miss him badly .me and huiqi got almost the same problem. feel like but scare.LOL. and we say we going to sing the song ' don't matter ' lol. nobody want to see us together . my blog song. listen to the lyrics and this is how me and huiqi feel. lol. chat alot with her about hers and mine problem.

didnt go school today. must go school for the whole next week already.is a MUST! meet huiqi and rachel at hougang ktv at 3.30pm. sing yixian and vicky came.feel so much like crying. but didnt. after ktv keep asking people pei me go ahboy pub but gail cannot. then ahboy change outlet so we cant go in. so go my house i take spare cloths.if got go pub then i'll change it. go plaza meet gail and yvonne there. actually going daryl house with kumar pikachu they all to drink. but kumar say change it to tmr already. and i so much feel like drinking. keep asking around plaza see who want bring me and yixian go pub.tell bob also then he say he going tell caiyan that i want go pub. so i say 'say la i also not scare.' then he really tell caiyan. and i thought caiyan will scold me. then he shouted my name and say he other day bring me go. ahah! ah john also helping me find place. they say other day bring me go because today they not really free. how sad. ah john is so irritating la. keep disturb me. say he know my exboyfriend. and i thought he really know. then everytime will say lekhan here and there. walao. even my testimonial is flooded with him and yixian about what lek han. play pool eat suki sushi and touch screen. go home at around 12am like that.

today is tuesday. suppose to go out with ah boy. but he still didnt wake up. so around 3pm plus 136 to leonard house. daniel was there too.so long never hang out with them already. go there eat and chat awhile and i go hougang plaza meet huiqi and rachel. play pool slack talk eat drink and play touch screen.lol. so around 7 plus . ah boy wake up. but not meeting as he got to go work. and slack at plaza still. left me and huiqi. leonard daniel and xingjie came plaza play pool too. go find them awhile then walk home. now conferencing with rachel yvonne gail huiqi. i'm so confused. friends starting to say how cb im for what i'm doing . nobody actually understand.



WEDNESDAY



around 1 pm go gail house meet her . huiqi came too. slack awhile. then we saw her self potrait. LOL. she draw herself. damn funy. me and huiqi laugh like crazy. lol then they help me something. so after that we go MRT meet vicky and we train to cineleisure to watch the Pirates of the Caribbean. before the movie start we go eat long john. then after movie we mrt to tanjong pagar to pass ah boy things. then we mrt back to hougang . go plaza play touch screen. slack awhile .

then around 10pm plus i 136 to ice pub to meet yvonne babyxinyi and her friends. then i just reach there baby and yvonne go other place put me and her friends which i don't even know together. i don't intend to drink then the keith keep asking me to drink so okay lor. then still have to bluff them say i 18 years old from simei ITE same class with yvonne. lol . then keith and shalyn go buy thing. left me and that guy in the pub.then he keep asking me about ite. make me speechless.walao.then they all come back. drink and slack awhile. keith call 18 bottles of breezer for we girls. i drink 3 bottles of that and one cup of beer.

then around 12am plus ah boy finally come to rescue me. LOL. then he fetch me with his bike to yishun dam to meet up with his friends.slack there awhile . then that idiotic ahboy. take out the big lollipop that i gave him , and show off to his friends. walao. make me so shy ! then awhile later then go rounding with his friends . a total of 9 bikes together. they was so noisy. keep vroommm here and there and was like speeding. then ah boy go so fast untill like flying like that. we go untill puggol end. lOL! i keep wanting to go puggol end. and i keep asking my friends to go puggol end as i never go there before. and now ah boy is the first to bring me there. go there dont know do what? awhile only then go petrol sation then to thomsom prata shop.some of his friends was missing while on the way there . they kana road block and meet us at the prata shop. didnt eat. so after that ah boy send me home.reach home at around 4am plus. bathe talk to vicky awhile and sleep.

TUESDAY

morning 5.45am suppose to meet huiqi rachel gail and shirley at kovan mac to eat macdonald breakfast. but nobody wake up. so continue sleep untill around 8am like that bathed and meet huiqi and gail at hougang mall mac. eat breakfast.and we skip our lesson. lol. then after breakfast we bus to hougang ave 8. wanted to go frankie house and give him a surprise. then reach there he never answer phone . call his house his mother say he just sleep. so we cab back to hougang plaza. play touch screen spend alot money there.spend the rest of my money there.lol go back school for art.go library with gail to find research. at there chat alot . was kinda sad at that time as he didnt reply my msg. as in he don't even bother to reply. and he's treating so cold towards me. after art we go hougang mall eat. then go plaza play touch screen. then suddenly huiqi show me a msg. and she cried. i see her cry i also cry . feel so sad. frankie break with her. slack at toilet. everyone was like feeling so down. huibing and gail come back plaza find us. go home change and meet huibing and huiqi at her house downstair walk to hougang mall and buy stuff for ahboy. then go plaza slack eat play pool and touch screen. there's nothing else we can do beside all this. huibing and huiqi left early. so me gail and yvonne go hougang mall. shop something for ah boy again. after buying , father call ask me go down harvey norman to see. he buy laptop. LOL!. then i go home with them . go home they try to fix the wireless internet but cant! dont know why. do stuff and blah blah. and go sleep.

MONDAY

don't actually remember wat i do. go plaza play touch screen. lol. now we don't play diamond eleven . so waste of money. keep playing words hunt with pikachu huiqi and liting. got the first. aha!

AND i think this is the day that caiyan slap me! walao! and i almost cry! i say ' how can you slap me ? ! ' and my eyes full with tears. lol . then he hug me ask me dont cry and say sorry ' lol . he actually accidentally wan.
nevermind. i'm so understanding and i don't blame him.
because he was telling story and he actually say the word ' slack ' but i heard it as ' sex' then i'm like HUH!? sex!!?? then i think he wanted beat me of what then accidentally slapped me!!. soso sad la .. lOL.

meet yixian at 302 .walk to plaza then go hougang mall meet gail and rachel pepper and walk back to plaza.play touch screen then slack awhile. vicky came. so sad la. my diamond eleven top 1 kana beaten down by yvonne. then go home with vicky at 11 pm plus and now talking to huiqi and rachel

SATURDAY

around 2 plus huiqi come my house meet me bathed and go hougang plaza play touch screen then walk to the badminton court near hougang mall there meet grace they all. wait for fangjie mingjing come then me and huiqi go hougang mall meet gail and eat at long john. after eating huiqi go meet her frankie then me and gail cab to tan tock seng to meet caiyan. pei him. buy cigg for him. lol. so he go back to work. so we go walk walk untill when he breaktime then we come back. then we find our way to novena . then outside tan tock seng got a few building look so scary. so old . and we actually take photo there. gail keep wanting to go in and explore. but i don't want. because i scare.lol . so we walk to novena square. wanted to eat there. while ordering caiyan called. ask us go back.lol. so we walk shortcut back. pei him awhile then we go back to that old old building.we walk in a little but i scare.so i run out. lol take a few photo there . cabbed back to plaza and meet huiqi . play touch screen.because of that bloody touch screen i never eat never take bus home and go around and ask people to lend me money. and i owe so many people money. go home around 10 like that.

this are all the pictures



see i'm the first!! haha


huiqi and me


my tee shirt cute right.lol


in the cab to tan tock seng hospital


look like housefly hor? eye so big



starbuck


look at her idiot face



the scary building





how scary



she's soso brave


can you spot her!?


how idiotic im

sleep untill 1pm like that.wake up prepared.wait for father to come home and fetch me to school for PTM.
i failed like shit.
english - 42/100
chinese - 49 /100
math - 60/100
science - 26/100
combines humanities - 7 / 100
art -27/100

mrs krishnah complain alot. and she was so happy that my father was coming for ptm.cause every year my father won't come.lol.
after that go home.then meet huiqi at plaza at 5pm. play pool. so hard to bend down. whole body ache. play touch screen. and i actually get the first for diamond eleven. haha. so happy. i spend $8 on touch screen.lol. and i even go around begging people to lend me $1 just to play. i cant imagine i'm doing this man.lol. yixian came. slack awhile untill 10 plus walk home. and i downloaded on game from handphone.it costs me $6 but its fun. lol. huiqi download it too. conference with huiqi and rachel

today sports carnival .LOL.was kinda cool. no event for us. walk around talk cork.untill around joined tug-of-war. quite fun actually.hand was like fucking pain. kana blister .too much fiction.lol. and we get gold.wow!! aha. and actually green hawk and blue eagle are like cheering for us.and falcon is like so lonely.nobody cheer for them except their own house.and green hawks red kites and blue eagle all dun like falcon.even those teacher come cheer for us when we play tug of war with falcon.haha we won.yeah.so tiring.aha.after school go mall eat then go play play touch screen and go home . my backbone so pain now.got problem when bending now.bathe and go sleep untill 8pm plus watch tv and talking to rachel.

didnt go school today. 1.30pm go plaza meet the rest.while waiting for bus saw bob.lol.he meeting caiyan at plaza.go plaza together.lol.then go in school chat awhile then take my art stuff and went home again.sleep all the way untill 7pm.yixian called.go 302 meet her wait for ah john and his friend come.cab to paya lebar temple.slack there awhile then too boring so me and yixian bus to plaza first..wanted eat 805 de chicken chop but off.so go eat kopitiam then go up plaza play touch screen.soso fun.so happy to heard that touch screen okay already.so many people so happy.aha.waste a few dollar in it already.i get top 7 .weet then meet huiqi and mingjing awhile .pei yixian go 327 buy food saw benson there.talk to yixian about feeling. he tell me how he feel toward john and i tell her yesterday when watching movie with ah boy i think of when that time when i'm with him i was holding his hand. lol. and i actually feel like hugging him when i'm on his bike the reason is because i scare la lame..LOL. the feeling is sososo different . soso different. i don't know how to explain.maybe he's my exboyfriend.left some feeling behind. i dont know.

today got HI IDOL. aha. not bad actually .lol.after school go home changed. and meet huiqi and rachel at ang moh market there. walk to ave 8 mac to go toilet.meet yvonne there then we walk to frankie house.
stay there awhile. tell them to wish me good luck as i'm going to ride on ahboy's bike.when ah boy reach.rachel and yvonne pei me go down.i tell him very shakey want when longbang me.so we test afew rounds around the carpark.then really very shakey so i learn to sit still. lol. improve.lol.and sososo scary.more scary than charles want. and his helmet was like spoil . lol.then we two headed to bishan.my leg was like trembing when i get down the bike at bishan.lol.we wanted watch movie. but no much movie. then wanted watch 28 weeks later.but M18. tell him can't buy already he still go try.lol.play arcade and headed to town. the way to town wasn't that scary already.used to already. reach there his cashcard stuck inside that machine.cause when we at express way he forget to put the cashcard then he halfway anyhow put the card in.in the end stucked. then he anyhow pull. pull untill spoil.so go 711 buy cashcard then go park his bike.then go far east buy my t-shirt.then walk to shaw house.watch BLADES OF GLORY. not bad la.very funny.after watching we go taopayao meet his friends stay there untill 10 plus he send me to plaza.meet huiqi and rachel play two round of pool go KFC eat with rachel and went home.reach home around 11.30pm.
today was quite an enjoyable day.i really didn't expect that i'm really the first girl to sit his bike and the first person that he longbang .
anyway thanks alot =)

MONDAY

after school stay back for sports carnival. me and gail joined for 430m run.lol. gail say she didnt want to run.in the end she came in first.lol.and i 'm actually the last.then run pass basketball court.neojunyuan weiliang they keep giving me stress.lol.then whn ouside school i overtake them.i came in 2nd. but cant manage to overtake vivian.lol.after the run almost faint. then see huqi they play captain ball.then go canteen wait for them.untill 6plus me and gail go home.reach home bathe then my father actually no time bring me go buy phone.then we go kovan see phone.but i didnt buy new phone. my father buy and i used his phone.but i changed number already.then go plaza meet huiqi .and i actually wear untill so lok kok.make them all laugh at me.LOL. huiqi la physco me go.lol.then go eat long john and go home.

SUNDAY

stay at home then around 7 like that go meet huiqi shirley fangjie mingjing.go huiqi house slack.they thinking of matching their cheer leading cloths.around 10 plus go home.

SATURDAY

meet rachel gail at 5 hougang mall at 5 plus.eat long john. then mrt to far east.shop they buy things.but i never.no money.sian . then around 11 plus go home.chat with huiqi and rachel untill 5 am plus

didnt go school today wake up around 4pm plus. play computer and saw his blog .i'm soso sorry.nvm then prepare and meet yixian at 302 actually going ah john friend temple and see.then he dun allow us to go.so we go plaza. play one round of pool with huiqi at woodball. soso expensive la.cost $2 for one round leh. lol. then bob today bring all his bear come plaza and give to girls.lol i got a toy soldiers that i wanted it so long ago.aha thanks alot.go mall meet ivan.pei him eat kfc.vicky came and we headed to plaza.slack awhile. then go play pool and go home at 11plus.

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and i really didnt sleep. play computer untill 6 plus prepared and go school. school was still so boring.after school rush home prepare and meet huiqi yvonne and rachel at 805 pei them eat.then we mrt to plaza sing without yvonne.pei huiqi buy her dress.then shop around crap around.then around 5.30 go home.bathe and jitao sleep.untill 8pm plus my father and his stupid friend keep coming into the room and use the computer and his friends is so noisy talk untill so loud. so pissed off!! and i actually asked them to shut up. i want to sleep.! still i wake up and watch my 55 9pm show. then talk to huiqi and rachel on the phone till 2am plus.

and the ah boy thing really bothered me.i couldnt stand it anymore more.so i msg him and tell him how disappointed i am and ask him to get things clear. and ah shun actually explained to me also. quite relief after knowing the truth. and its just a misunderstanding.and i'm so wrong in bringing up the past.and i did doubt him after i saw his blog.but i actually still believe what he say.thats all.

omg its 3.14am now. and i still havent sleep. tmr still got school leh.
whatever. i feel kinda bored so i go read his blog.

i saw one of the post saying that he promise one girl that when he get his bike. he'll let that girl be the first girl to sit on it. i remember he said this to me before.
i was quite disappointed as i was so touched at that time as i thought he only say it to me and thought he mean it , never thought that before me he already say to other girl .nevermind this is already the third guy that say this to me .used to it. i'm thinking issit he used this sentence whenever he's woo-ing girls? so i msg him saying this ' isit that you tell everygirl that you promise her to be the first girl to sit on your bike? ' he replied ' no ' . but the truth is that he did say it to another girl .

after reading his blog.i really wonder if he takes this relationship serious? although i'm the one breaking his heart but i'm serious. i never never never thought of playing anyone feeling.maybe he will think that i'm playing with his feeling. but i really never.what so fun about playing others feeling? i did tried to like or even love him but he's not the type that i want .he's really treat me very good. all my friends envy me. have such a good boyfrien but i just feel unconfortable with him.

i really wonder if he really takes every relationship serious.because most of the girls mention in his blog is all with ' i really love her ' . and there are so many girls. and he tell me he only serious with 2 or 3 ex girlfriend . but his blog write untill he seriously love the girl soso much.
and now i'm wondering if he really serious with me?

Do everyone think of her/his ex often? even when you don't love him/her ? i do ,and i feel quite weird that why am i think of him that often. is that normal for everyone ?
maybe he's my first boyfriend thats why.theres still feeling in it.

i really do feel sad when he don't bother about me but i know my heart is with someone else.

that time when go ice pub drink with him i feel so bad.that time i was like crying.and he sit beside me keep asking me what happen and ask me tell him.but i didnt because no one know. me myself also dont know why? so i ignore him. he show me picture and tell me how he feel . and i remember the last sentence he say so clearly before he go to his friends table ,i think he quite pissed off la because i keep ignore him. he said ' you forever don't know how does it feels like when worrying for people '
i know how does it feels like. i do . at that time i didn't care about how he feel. and i actually send him this sms. i send him ' what if i tell you i only go after you bike money and everything ' i didnt think much at that time .
i tell my friends i send him that. they say me. say i'm so bad.

i also don't know whats wrong with me . why am i saying out the past?
but i feel so much relax when typing all out.

its quite sad to know that leonard mervyn and foofy they separated already.they didnt go out with each other anymore.and the saddest thing is when i'm down they are not there anymore. nobody pei me go drink already.gail they all also.they have to reach home early.

i really don't like to cry. i always think that when i'm down or sad cry is the best way to express out. will feel much more better when cry it all out. but after crying for lots of times. i'm really tired of crying.really tired

i think i'm not sleeping. because it's already 5.17am now.of cause not spend this 2 hours writing the whole post la. between this time i got play some games.if i go sleepat this time i cant wake up in time.so forced myself not to sleep =)